Confessions

(I don't normally express my innermost thoughts....and this is a bit hard. But I have thoughts that are eating away at me......what a better way than to blog. to get it off my chest. sort of. I'll just call it therapeutic blogging. HA.)

sometimes i just need to pause.

and remind myself to sit back and enjoy the moment. just soak it in. 

for these moments won't last forever.

how they quickly fade away.....

i need to remind myself of how much i have to be thankful for.

of how truly blessed i am. in so many ways.

that i have one beautiful, healthy, happy, amazing boy.

that makes me smile. every. single. day.

so then why do i continually feel the need to focus on what i don't have?

i need to stop focusing on what i don't have right now.

and start focusing on what i do have.

so why is it so hard?

someday the tides will turn. i hope.

but, in the meantime, i am going to try really hard.

to focus on what i do have.

and just live in the moment.

and hope someday what i long for the most. will be reality.